已经心灰意冷
厌倦了
总是戴着开朗的面具 在众人前扮演着另一个自己
就为了得到认同 得到我一直以来所向往的东西
反而到头来失去得更多
毕竟我只是一个乳臭未干 不懂事 又被宠坏的家伙
不懂什么是关心 什么是信任
上一代的悲剧 会带来下一代的阴影
我讨厌我的懦弱
总是害怕着会得面对的伤痛
而不停地逃避
看得太多 满脸泪水的表情
听得太多 心碎的心声
我不能不保护自己
但还是逃不掉
而我只能一个人躲在角落地哭泣
渐渐的 我以习惯了伤痛
还以为自己变坚强了
原来是开始失去原来的自己
有时回头想想 自己好像很可悲
为了扮演好自己应有的角色
放弃了许多
但我只能安慰自己 说“只要他们开心就好”
有人曾经说我像棵 树
外表坚强 但经历的伤痛都刻在心上
被伪装给遮盖了 但虽如此这些伤口是不可能消失
而且总是自己一个人站在原地 就只为了守着自己的原则
远看就像任何人一样
近看却伤痕累累
不仅让我思考着。。。
像树也蛮好的
能给人依靠
*叹气* 突然写了这么多悲观的事
心情糟透了
没关系 我是我老爸的女儿
江家的人都很坚强的!
虽然最近总感到很累 好想好好地睡而什么都不必担心
但我必须变坚强 我不想再为了那种事伤心难过
GAMBATTE NE~!
我可以的!
3 days of freedom to be spent at home with my bro.
:/ end up doing nth much.
except endless food hunting with my bro.
literally burnt out, after having to do all the housechores,
worrying abt every meals, my blur bro actions.
anyho, still gets to eat subway& japanese food with my bro :D
going home late~
cooking food ourselves, pizza+siew mai+ prawn dumpling for breakfast!
both of us went gorcery shopping, finding ingredients to cook for dinner,
grabbing all we can find, and end up putting all the ingredients back TWICE
cause we couldnt find all the ingredients and is pretty lasy to cook a proper western dinner.
xD
of course, having to find out my module assignments and projects early,
may just NOT be a good thing
i end up stressing ALOT even before the school reopens
i'm feeling like being hit real hard on my head
i couldnt think well
China history overloads
borrowed 5 books from library
all add up even thicker than the books i ever read this year
sudden urge of being hardworking
hopefully my 三分钟热度attitude wont acts up again
but seriously, who can finish all these books,
Pioneers of Modern China
China Persectives
China Condensed- 5000 Years of history and culture
天安门广场-备忘录
& last but not least
东方神起TVXQ-TOP SECRETS 完全手册
^definitely have to finish reading this, after having to search for it for 1&1/2yrs
oh right, i was late for lecture today, which is only my 1ST day of school,
nice start of the semester.
all because of after having to sleep at 3am and totally forgeting that i have SOM lecture at 9am
end up didnt attend it and spend my 1&1/2 hr time at library reading up China Condensed,
explains the knowledge overload
unexpectingly, it is really interesting to read but it often confuses me with all the names, dynasty and countries.
i felt darn awful right after that and i started to become moody
*so.... china history makes me feel interested and moody at the same time*
and i still am.. :/
vic is planning to bring us to somewhere to eat before the nasty BCOMM lesson :/
all hail the daym self introduction that we have to give again
new classmates,
new teacher,
more troubles
constant remindar *i need to be friendly*
oh my parents are back, my dad just pat on my head asking me abt school.
xD it's been long since he pats my head.
normally if someone pats my head, i'll feel alit annoyed
but i like it when my dad does that
hahahaha afterall im his pampered daughter.
hahaha SY shared YT links for HEYHEYHEY with the beloved
they are darn funny and cute~!!
silly actions and talks
HAHAHAHA seriously some dear souls PLEASE sub it, i could only understand 60% of the overall thing
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4FbBqjntwU0
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JLctlN8xIlU&feature=user
i want ALI chicken! i want spices!
I SHOULD HAVE A SPICY ENDURANCE COMPETITION WITH JAE!
we both are spicy food lovers!
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end up looking like this (due to the fact that, my hair is naturally soft till i couldnt style it with wax. ): )
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went out with SY on 10th April to SU korean restaurant
recommended by dear energy to filful our desired crave for bulgogi
xD not really full cause of the food but due to the water
3rd consecutive Thursday dates with SY already
& sadly to say, i forgot to bring her TRICK singles,
so... we need to meet up again hahahahaa
went out with meda for lunch and went to help her to clear her room xD
my 7th floor neighbour!
i was indeed surprised by the amount of items in her room!
as compared to mine.. mine is probably 40% of hers.
nevertheless, cleared quite alot
and non stop vid-ing off TVXQ songs
making meda to listen& watch it.
she is impressed with their vocals ^^
esp their accapella!
i'm proud to be a TVXQ! fan
& meda promised to teach me piano!
at least learn how to play love in the ice :D
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8th April
did'nt do much, in fact i had a movie marathon
non-stop movies straight for 7 hrs.
went out a lit while to clear some stuffs.
chatted with energy rgding korea ent. music & personal stuffs
she spams me with YG + park hyo shin vids
while i spam her with jae pics and tvxq vids
she made me crasy over park hyo shin vocals
and i made her crasy over smexy jae and
she is tempted to get FITB dvd after watching the vids
hahaha, fruitful day with lots of music exchange~!!
--»ღアリサღ«-- PROPERTY OF 1TYM. arisa.1TYMfo'life. http://geek-girl.imeem.com/music/iWj8lrT-/
it's just odd how we are talking so each other again cause of tvxq
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like talk more la
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hahaha
KEI bulgogi crave 24/11
haha! yeah.
KEI bulgogi crave 24/11
power of dong bang
^^ definitely made more friends and closer with some friends cause of TVXQ!
i'm thankful to them.
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9th April (today)
As usual, drag my lasy arse up at 7am to bathe my lit bro and get him to school.
daily routine, i'm seriously lack of sleep!!!
continue my movie marathon ( which i intend to do so till school reopens)
currently there're a couple of books on my table, comics & 2 chinese book namely 秘密 and 在灵魂居住的地方. reading the 2nd book right now, and definitely a good book, keeps me thinking alot.
random chatting with SY
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???? ・、・・・・・・ェ・ニ・、 ・「・ツ・ナ・・・ホ・・・ェ・D・ォ・ウ... ・l・フ・「・E・ノ・S・ト・セ・チ・ス said:
what does the m in sj-m stands for?
???? ・、・・・・・・ェ・ニ・、 ・「・ツ・ナ・・・ホ・・・ェ・D・ォ・ウ... ・l・フ・「・E・ノ・S・ト・セ・チ・ス said:
mandarin?
KEI bulgogi crave 24/11 said:
yup
KEI bulgogi crave 24/11 said:
pointless right
KEI bulgogi crave 24/11 said:
mandarin =_=. cant they get a better name
???? ・、・・・・・・ェ・ニ・、 ・「・ツ・ナ・・・ホ・・・ェ・D・ォ・ウ... ・l・フ・「・E・ノ・S・ト・セ・チ・ス says :
in a group name?
???? ・、・・・・・・ェ・ニ・、 ・「・ツ・ナ・・・ホ・・・ェ・D・ォ・ウ... ・l・フ・「・E・ノ・S・ト・セ・チ・ス says :
funny
KEI bulgogi crave 24/11 says :
ya imagine ppl screaming for them
KEI bulgogi crave 24/11 says :
MANADARIN!
???? ・、・・・・・・ェ・ニ・、 ・「・ツ・ナ・・・ホ・・・ェ・D・ォ・ウ... ・l・フ・「・E・ノ・S・ト・セ・チ・ス says :
then you can shout
KEI bulgogi crave 24/11 says :
SUJU 华语
???? ・、・・・・・・ェ・ニ・、 ・「・ツ・ナ・・・ホ・・・ェ・D・ォ・ウ... ・l・フ・「・E・ノ・S・ト・セ・チ・ス says :
ORANGE! behind
KEI bulgogi crave 24/11 says :
lol. SM is getting more and more lasy to think of better names
???? ・、・・・・・・ェ・ニ・、 ・「・ツ・ナ・・・ホ・・・ェ・D・ォ・ウ... ・l・フ・「・E・ノ・S・ト・セ・チ・ス says :
is that their chinese name for in china?
KEI bulgogi crave 24/11 says :
nah
KEI bulgogi crave 24/11 says :
idk abt their chinese name
KEI bulgogi crave 24/11 says :
they dont have chinese name what
KEI bulgogi crave 24/11 says :
i thought SUPER JUNIOR thats it.
???? ・、・・・・・・ェ・ニ・、 ・「・ツ・ナ・・・ホ・・・ェ・D・ォ・ウ... ・l・フ・「・E・ノ・S・ト・セ・チ・ス says :
haha
???? ・、・・・・・・ェ・ニ・、 ・「・ツ・ナ・・・ホ・・・ェ・D・ォ・ウ... ・l・フ・「・E・ノ・S・ト・セ・チ・ス says :
but if they directly translate to that
???? ・、・・・・・・ェ・ニ・、 ・「・ツ・ナ・・・ホ・・・ェ・D・ォ・ウ... ・l・フ・「・E・ノ・S・ト・セ・チ・ス says :
-_-
KEI bulgogi crave 24/11 says :
not like SM will be dumb enough to translate into 超级小辈
KEI bulgogi crave 24/11 says :
LOL
KEI bulgogi crave 24/11 says :
sounds so wrong
???? ・、・・・・・・ェ・ニ・、 ・「・ツ・ナ・・・ホ・・・ェ・D・ォ・ウ... ・l・フ・「・E・ノ・S・ト・セ・チ・ス says :
sounds stupid
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back to reading~ i feel so philosophical
went out with Energy for our all time fav. BULGOGI~
simply delicious and addictive.
Been to the same restaurant for the 2nd time
tho we always venture about Singapore in search of great Korean restaurant
which serve us a yummy dose of bulgogi with lettuce.
I remembered our 1st random visit to Square2 for Korean stuffs
and entered a traditional looking Korean restaurant to eat bulgogi for the 1st time
it was all nice and such but when the receipt came.
Both of us were shocked and speechless.
a whopping 77.70sg with just both of us dining.
instant burn on our wallets but it is so worth it.
and that's how our adventure for bulgogi begins. (:
daym, I miss bulgogi already.
Korean crave gets me real deep.
the culture, the food, the entertainment and of course the people.
*hopes* my aunt will confirm her trip to Korea next year and fulfil her promise of bringing me there!
oh yea, SY is going Korea soon, named a list of items i want xD it's kind of alot but there're too many things that i want to get! hopes she brings enough money& visit xiah papa pizza shop :D
i can lend you my korean book!
shoots, it's 2.26pm! need to head off to meet Meda for lunch. update later~
till then. ciao!
edited, continued
oh yeah, i forgot to mention how unthrifty i was for the past few weeks, saved more than enough money initially after weeks of sagging at home and almost becoming like a 宅女.
my overspending habit sparks off again when meda asked me out for dinner, and i brought her to MadJack, good food~ oh saw alfred there.. as a waiter (that will be one of the most unexpected thing that can happen)
after that day, SY dated me out for dinner also, and we went catching a movie first, Shutter.
ended up opening my eyes this big =_= to watch every single *ghost gonna appear*part, so basically i didnt see much of the ghost face, i was more timid then i expected, daym, what's wrong with my gut, i used to be daring.
& we had Japanese food as dinner at Waraku, ordered tons of food, from gorgeously delicious to wt* food. I SERIOUSLY regretted ordering Natto again, cause of TVXQ! and thankfully, that's the last course and it smell like shit. totally.
all the beef, raw tuna and such aint comparable to the impact of the smell and taste of Natto on my mind. gosh!
Went to Korea culture festival the next day again with Vic& LY. total Korea exchange!
LOVE THE FOOD! yumyum, bulgogi, Saba fish, dukbokki, dong fen etc to rice drink and maple flavoured Soju~
OHOH we managed to talk to the Korean Ambass, he is really friendly and chatted alot with us.
Pretty guilty to say, we all sat at the wrong table and were mistaken as VIP :D
the 2 only thing that didnt impress me is the korean fashion show and the singer (shall not elaborate on this) I expected hanbok to be shown during the fashion show, instead? bikini and trunks with the same few models. gosh they aint koreans also.
ate international food throughout the weeks, enjoy my carefree jobless life.
school starting soon~ and anyone wanna date me before that? :D BULGOGI!!!
Finished! Only did a little slight changes since im pretty lasy to redo the whole template
xD will be back to post more.
Hope my blogging motivation last
credit: Yoonhostar, mumo
edited.
I realise that i have really cut down on TVXQ updates as compared to last time. Now i'll just save the pics and run through the TVXQ thread very fast in every 2~3days time. But for sure, my love for them does'nt decrease, just.. probably a bit tired of being crasy of them all the time, having them in my conversations with friends all the time, making them everything in my life.
However, I am truely thankful towards them, as if it's not for them, i would'nt make new friends, go through some pretty bad moments. And I decided to really (i mean REALLY) settle down and study with less TVXQ distractions and score better for next semester's exams. Not just for me, but for TVXQ, in case anyone uses my poor results as a reason to bash TVXQ.
Just did a fast update and saw a short preview of their Beautiful You mv along with fanmeeting. I could'nt help but laugh at Changmin's pants. LOL the stylist has gave up on CM's long legs, i bet he felt really embarrassed but stilll have to pull off with a smile on his face. 
I guess this is what a 188cm guy gets for being the tallest xD
If you notice, Jaejoong looked really small in there.
And Micky's surprised me, lots
It's a good attempt to change a new hairstyle, and i respect your highly versatile hairstyles,
but this is definitely one of the hairstylist-gone-mad times, or probably it's recommended by any of the boys.
No offense, everyone has their bad hair day
But seriously, what is with the silver portions of hair. It makes you look like a ... poodie.
& At times, makes you seem like the greatest fool.
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